BLEUPRINT IN THE MAKING — JOURNAL ENTRY 003

Journal Entry 003: I Am Not a Calendar Entry

I once said yes to a back-to-back day
because I thought being full meant being valuable.

But now I feel it in my spine —
I am not a calendar entry.
I am not a placeholder between bullet points.
I am not here to be optimized.

Today I cried.
Not because I’m weak —
but because my nervous system raised its hand and said:
“Please. Let me breathe.”

And I’m learning to listen.

Some part of me is still stuck thinking
that being booked means I matter.

But the deeper part — the truer part —
just wants time to feel again.

🖋 Question:
What part of you has been scheduling your worth?

What would it look like to be more than available?

–Bleu