BleuPrint Diaries

Category: Fractional & Freeing

  • Bleuprint in the Making — Journal Entry 007

    Bleuprint in the Making — Journal Entry 007

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    Journal Entry 007: The Win That Wasn’t Measured This week, I stayed tender. I didn’t push through the migraine.I didn’t gaslight my fatigue.I didn’t pretend to be okay on Zoom when I wasn’t. That’s not slacking.That’s sovereignty. I’m done chasing external applause.My body’s “thank you” is the only win I need. 🖋 Question: Name one…

  • Bleuprint in the Making — Journal Entry 006

    Bleuprint in the Making — Journal Entry 006

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    Journal Entry 006: The Boldness I Didn’t Announce I used to think being bold meant being loud.That it had to be some capital-M Moment. But today, boldness looked like saying:“That doesn’t work for me.” And then… not following it with a 3-paragraph apology. The revolution doesn’t always look like fire.Sometimes it’s just one womanreclaiming her…

  • Journal Entry 005: When a Whisper Becomes a Wall

    Journal Entry 005: When a Whisper Becomes a Wall

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    I used to think boundaries had to sound bold —“No!” with fists on hips. But lately, my no is a whisper.A breath.A slow blink before I don’t respond. And it’s still valid. Boundaries don’t need to be loud to be real. Sometimes the most powerful thing you do all weekis not explain yourself. 🖋 Question:…

  • Bleuprint in the Making – Journal Entry 004

    Bleuprint in the Making – Journal Entry 004

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    Journal Entry 004: I Am Still Worthy If I’m Not Funny Today I used to think humor made me palatable. That if I made them laugh, they wouldn’t notice how tired I was. That my softness could be toleratedas long as I packaged it in a punchline. But today, I didn’t feel like being funny.…

  • BLEUPRINT IN THE MAKING — JOURNAL ENTRY 003

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    Journal Entry 003: I Am Not a Calendar Entry I once said yes to a back-to-back daybecause I thought being full meant being valuable. But now I feel it in my spine —I am not a calendar entry.I am not a placeholder between bullet points.I am not here to be optimized. Today I cried.Not because…

  • Bleuprint in the Making

    Bleuprint in the Making

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    Entry 001: The Question That Keeps Returning Somewhere between the paycheck and the panic attacks,I started asking: What is all this performing costing me? Not just in hours.In wholeness. Bleuprint, unfinished:Maybe success doesn’t have to look like applause.Maybe it can look like sleep. Like joy. Like presence. 🖋 Question?:What part of you is tired of…

  • Bleu in the Breakroom

    Bleu in the Breakroom

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    Volume 001: The Day I Didn’t Want to Be Ambitious I closed the tab that said “10 Ways to Scale Your Personal Brand.”Not because I disagreed.Because I didn’t care. Today, I didn’t want to be impressive.I didn’t want to scale.I wanted to soften. I wanted to sit in the bathroom stall for five minutes and…

  • The Call

    The Call

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    Come in.Wipe your feet on the myths they gave you.Take off your titles.Breathe deeper than your ambition. You do not need to be more.You do not need to brand your becoming.You are not behind.You are not broken. You are simply remembering. This is not a blog.This is a soft place to fall apart,and fall together…